My true flesh. My true feelings. My true insecurities.

My true flesh. My true feelings. My true insecurities.

1.)  I don’t like my nose. I never have, and I feel like I never will. It looks weird from my profile and I dont like it. 

2.) Sometimes I feel like I'm too skinny, and then the very next day I feel like I look fat. I don’t know, I'm sure every girl feels that way. But just in case they don’t, I do. 

3.) My feet are too big. And they aren’t flexible enough. They are boney and awkward. 

4.) My veins stick out too much. Especially on my hands. 

5.) Sometimes I feel too tall, and other times I feel too short. 

6.)  My laugh is obnoxious and I wish it was cuter

7.) My voice is so annoying. Like, my sincere apologies for anyone that talks to me.

8.) My legs don’t straighten all the way, or at least it looks that way. And with my sport, that’s a problem

9.) I'm not the smartest person in class and I'm very much aware of it

10.) My hair isn't thick enough and I wish it was prettier

My true flesh. My true feelings. My true insecurities.

Please, I am not afraid of numbers

I am afraid of nothing.

Wait that was a lie; I'm afraid of lies. I'm afraid of being lied too and I'm afraid of lying to the ones I love.

Love. I'm afraid of losing him and I'm afraid of not being everything he deserves.

Losing. I'm afraid of working so hard for the things I care about just to lose them in the end.

End. I'm afraid of the end. I don’t want to die, and maybe that’s just because I've never experienced it.

Experience. I'm afraid that I wont reach my potential because I chose a wrong choice and the opportunity for experience will be gone.

Choices. I'm afraid of choices because every choice you make determines your future and I don’t want to make a mistake.

Mistakes. I'm afraid of my mistakes because I make them over and over and my imperfections are more numerous than they should be.

Numbers. Maybe numbers scare me too. Why don’t they end? They have to end.

I am afraid. I’m afraid of pretty much everything and anything.

I am afraid. But I am also hopeful.

I'm hopeful that I wont be lied to and that if I love him enough he will stay around. I'm hopeful that I can come out on top if I work hard enough and that even though the end will come, it will be glorious. I'm hopeful that I can become the best me with any experience that comes my way. I'm hopeful that I will make the right choices and that mistakes, although inevitable, can turn out for the best. 

And numbers, please, I'm not afraid of numbers. 

Anti Bucket List

Anti bucket list

* I hope I never have to only eat avocados for morning, lunch and dinner

* I hope I never have to run for President of the United States

* I hope I never have to sleep in a bed full of spiders  

* I hope I never have to swallow a sock, that would be gross 

* I hope I never have to bungee jump without a bungee cord… then again.. that wouldn't really be bungee jumping now would it. That’s just jumping to my death. REWRITE: I hope I never have to jump to my death.

* I hope I never have to sing an opera song in public

* I hope I never have to call my parents to bail me out of jail

* I hope I never have to jump into a pool of snakes. No way. Not my thing.

* I hope I never have to experience real heart break...

* I hope I never have to clean up throw up... (my kids better know that because that’s just unacceptable)

* I hope I never have to freeze to death

* I hope I never have to burn to death

… can I just die at room temperature? Thanks.

* I hope I never have to swim with sharks

* I hope I never break my femur (OW!)

* I hope I never get lost on some island and never find my way back to society ever again ( lucky for me ive been to like, Montana and that’s it. Soooo. Im pretty solid on that one.) 

How to be someone I don't like

How to be a someone I don’t like:

1.) DRIVE SLOW

2.) Scream when you see your girl friends you saw last period

3.) Take selfies and then post them on instagram with some deep quote that has absolutely nothing to do with your picture

4) Don’t turn right at the stop light next to the school when its red. (BECAUSE YOU FREAKING CAN! …but if you want to be someone I don’t like… please.. by all means.. don’t turn.)

5.) Don’t pay attention to the football game when youre in the student section

6.) Be mean to kids with disabilities

7.) Think youre "too cool" for seminary

8.) Be gorgeous all the time ( my jealousy for you girls on a scale from 1-10 is definitely 11 )                                                        (So. Please be uglier. Thanks.) 

9.) disrespect you parents

10.) push me around in the hall like im some kind of sophomore. GOSH DANG YOU IM A SENIOR. 

Someone had to say it...

Someone had to say it…

To the ladies:

Im sorry girls but spray tans are ugly.

And acting dumb was never cute.

Oh. And your selfies make me feel uncomfortable so stop posting them with some deep quote about why you should smile. …. Its weird.

To the boys:

NEWS FLASH: Girls actually don’t find it attractive when you act like a tool (I know. Who would have guessed?)

To the teachers:

If you're the kind of teacher that doesn't let you put your head down in class… you can bet your on my bad side.  Don’t blame me for sleeping… blame yourself for being boring.

To the wanna be hipsters:

Just because you're wearing a beanie next to brick wall doesn't make you hipster. But good try though.

To those who are reading this post and hating it:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA YOU JUST WASTED YOUR TIME

Wow im hilarious. 

#different post (level:pathetic)

What I wish was different…

I wish baseball was more entertaining on TV..

Pepsi products were banned,

And beef jerky was cheaper

I wish I was better at saving money..

My neighbors didn't scare me as much,

and weekends were longer

I wish I gossiped less

Money came easier

And I could actually stay awake in Astronomy (Dream on)

If things were different my hair would be thicker

and my brain would be smarter

ps.

...The sad thing about this list is my beef jerky line is the thing that inspired me...

                                                  I love jerky...